I went out last night with all of Bob’s friends that I’m lucky to call my friends too. They’ve been a part of my life for 11 years and they’re still there for me and the boys. We had a good time and went to one of mine and Bob’s favorite places to eat. I’m not sure if the others noticed this or not but we had asked for a table for 8. When she seated us she said 8 right and I said yes. Well we all sit down and there was some confusion because there were actually 9 chairs and at first there were 5 people on one side of the table and 3 on the other side. We switched around to get 4 and 4 but then there was this extra chair still so we ended up moving that. I was thinking the whole time that I don’t think it was an accident that there were 9 chairs, that extra chair was for Bob. I didn’t say anything but I know Bob was there with us celebrating his birthday. We had good conversation and lots of laughter and talked about some of the stupid things Bob used to do. Hopefully one day I’ll have these guys write these things down that they remember about Bob so the boys can read about it.
This morning I asked Logan what today was and he knew it was daddy’s birthday.
Today the boys and I went and picked up a cake for Bob’s birthday and some balloons the boys could release at Bob’s tree. We went to Bee Tree to see his tree and after writing what we wanted on the balloons the boys released both of them (for those of you wondering, yes I cut the strings off of the balloons before we released them). The kids really liked sending balloons up to daddy so I’m sure it will be a yearly thing.
We got home, ate lunch and Logan was ready for some cake. We lit some candles and Logan sang happy birthday. I was going to ask him if he wanted to sing but he beat me to it and asked if he could sing to daddy. It made my heart happy hearing him. Bob always sang to the boys so hopefully they will get his singing abilities and not mine.
To Bob, on what would have been your 32nd birthday. This has been difficult and it’s just another first I have to get through. You were the best thing besides the kids to have ever happened to me. I only got to be with you for 11 short years but I’m so thankful for that time. I thank God for having us cross paths so we could fall in love, get married and have a family. You made me a better person and I’m trying so hard to continue to be that person. I see you in the boys everyday and that helps. They have changed so much in the little amount of time you’ve been gone and are going to be amazing men some day (but let’s not rush that).