I’m not sure I even have the words to say but just need to write something. I stood in line at the visitation for Blake for 2 1/2 hours and I know the line had to be a longer wait after that. I was outside for about 1 1/2 of those hours trying to prepare […]
Officer Down
“Officer Down” are two words you never want to hear yet we’ve been hearing them more and more often lately and they are unfortunately words that were heard very early this morning for my own Police family. It’s not out of the ordinary that I wake up in the middle of the night. Sometimes it’s […]
31st Birthday
The day before my birthday actually was a pretty great day except for the weird dream I had (I’ll post about that at the end). The St. Louis County Police Hockey team played a fundraiser game for my family against the Metro East First Responders. They had a moment of silence for Bob and I […]
4 months
Today marks 4 months since the last time I got to look Bob in his eyes and tell him “I love you”. I still tell him everyday but it’s not the same. It’s so weird to think another month has gone by and that every month on the 27th I will be forced to think […]
Valentine’s Day
My first Valentine’s Day without my Valentine. I don’t really know what to say about that, it’s depressing. Even though we never made a big deal about it Bob would still get me a card or flowers or just go to dinner. It never had to be the day of either, just around there since […]