If it weren’t for Bob I wouldn’t be a mom and wouldn’t have these two little boys in my life. He gave me the one thing I always wanted, to be a mom, so obviously my first Mother’s Day without him is hard.
Bob would always tell me Happy Mother’s Day first thing in the morning. Sometimes he would make breakfast but we usually did it together because that’s what we enjoyed. I ate cereal for my Mother’s Day breakfast which was just blah. I got myself and the kids ready and headed to the store because I forgot that Logan had to bring something for his birthday celebration on Monday (they celebrate the summer birthdays at the end of the school year). They saw these Woody and Buzz balloons that they just both had to have and I gave in because I didn’t want to have a break down myself in the store with them having a meltdown. I had already been crying all morning because they had been acting bad so I knew that it wouldn’t take much for me to start crying again. I asked Logan why he gets something and I don’t, it’s supposed to be my day. He just responded with “but I want it”
Saturday night Logan was mad at me for some reason and told me, “you’re not the best mommy” so that’s the main reason I woke up in such a bad mood on Mother’s Day. I know he doesn’t really mean that but it just stings so much more now that I’m the ONLY parent.
I wish I could have just 10 minutes of quiet time a day to just sit and relax but that never happens. I know it’s hard for kids to understand these things but geez, I just want 10 freaking minutes by myself. Days when I needed a 10 minute break or even a 10 minute shower Bob was more than happy to let me have that. He’d say I’ve got them, you go and do what you need to do.
Sunday night I went to dinner at my in-laws so that was nice. My mother in law even texted me earlier that day that she bought some Bud Select since she knew I liked it so she must have somehow known I would need a drink after the day I had. I got a nice bracelet from the boys (aka, my mother-in-law). I did also get some cute gifts that Logan made at school so overall it wasn’t completely bad. I think he got his favorite place to eat mixed up with mine though, haha.
