My first Valentine’s Day without my Valentine. I don’t really know what to say about that, it’s depressing. Even though we never made a big deal about it Bob would still get me a card or flowers or just go to dinner. It never had to be the day of either, just around there since we usually always worked that day.
The morning of Valentine’s Day someone left a bag of goodies for the kids and I and some flowers for me on the front porch. There was no card so I don’t know who to thank but if you’re reading this, thank you! Later on that day my mom sent me a text (she was watching the boys for me) that I had flowers delivered from Pro Flowers. I asked her to open it and see who it was from. Toni (a lady from Caring for Widows and Orphans) had sent them to me. She reached out to me shortly after my husband died and has been in touch with various things, food, books on grieving and giftcards.
A few weeks ago a friend of mine asked if I’d like to join her and her fiance and some others to go to PBR (professional bull riding) on Valentine’s Day. I said yes and I’m glad I did. It snowed a lot that day and would have been so easy to just stay at home in my pajamas, turn a movie on for the kids to distract them and just sit there and cry and feel sorry for myself. Instead I went to PBR with some great friends and made some new ones. I had such a great time with them and I’m so glad I went. After PBR we went to a bar and ended up playing this basketball game most the night. We all had to try and beat this 11 year old kid that was there. Don’t worry, I did. I definitely felt it the next morning, my wrist was killing me, (thank God for my oils!).
Two of the guys we were with had worked with Bob so it was nice knowing they knew him and we actually talked about him quite a bit. I almost cried a few times but held it in. I just wish he could have been there with us enjoying the night. Everyone I was with that night I had met because of Bob and I know he would tell me it’s all part of God’s plan, so I just have to keep reminding myself of that. There have been so many amazing people put into my life over the past year and I’m so thankful for them. All in all it actually turned out to be a good day. Can’t wait for PBR next year.